Crappy Tuesday

Hey dude,

You’re probably wondering why I was crying this morning. It started last night.

                My mom asked me something and I answered her by telling her the truth. And as it turned out, she didn’t believe me. It’s silly. When I lie she believes me and when I tell the truth she doesn’t. I guess that’s what I get for lying to her so much in the past right? My lying face and nervous tics became my truth-telling face.

               

                She asked me why I” quit” (the “ ” because I didn’t exactly quit) band. Simple question. Easy. I took a break because I didn’t like how the band director was teaching. There were only four dedicated members (including me) and when one got suspended, one quit because of lack of interest and the other didn’t care anymore it was only me. It was more pressure on my shoulders and I couldn’t do it by myself. So I took a break.

                This is why I “quit”.

                And this is what I told my mom.

                And she didn’t believe me.

                I got angry. But it wasn’t the type of anger when you feel it rising inside you and you feel steam blowing from your ears like in those old cartoons (and yes, it actually does feel like that), or the type of anger you feel when you have to punch something and if you don’t you might combust. It was the type of anger when you don’t know what to do but for now you’re gonna cry. When you feel this massive black hole inside of you sucking in your insides and there’s nothing for you to do but sit there and take it and cry. But that just made everything worse.

                Why are you crying. If you were telling me the truth then you wouldn’t be crying. If I find out you’re lying to me the consequences will be way worse.

                I’d heard it before but then it just scared me because I was indeed lying so therefore I had to make up more lies to cover up that one lie that started it all. But now it hurt. I wasn’t lying and I really wanted her to know that.

                 I had no reason to lie.

                Not then, at least. Maybe I should have lied. It would of saved tears and time.But that’s what kids do. They lie to cover up something (probably stupid and that probably wasn’t even worth the lie) that they would be ashamed to tell their mom, the person that brought them into this crazy, fast-moving world, but not their gang of so-called friends that they most likely won’t ever see again after high school.

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I was reading this article about the things that babies born this year won’t know about. For example, my generation’s children won’t know what a fax machine is. Or what a tape is. Or CD’s. Or even privacy.

                Nowadays everything is out on the open. Stocking someone is so easy now. There are website especially made to see where people are and what they’re doing every minute of the day. My kids won’t know what “long distance” is. People have relationships across cities, states, continents.

                In 20 years when my child asks me what a book is I think I’m going to cry. It’s really sad. Books are my life. Just a couple years ago, it was considered disrespectful to talk to two people at once. Now teens text five people at once while having a conversation with their parents. We text during dinner, the only time of the day the family comes together as one. Even during church.

                We’ve let technology over rule us. Nobody tunes in to watch to anymore.  If you want to watch the latest episode of the Bachelor just watch it from your phone. Like that episode of The Simpsons when the iPods were whipping the humans with earphones. Technology took over.

                No one no longer draws or paints. Art is now designing a web page.

                In 10 years we won’t use paper.

                Or watches.

                Or wires.

                We won’t be able to avoid anyone anymore. If someone called you, you had the option to answer or not. You can’t do that anymore. If you ignore someone’s call they know they’ve been ignored and will text you ‘til you reply.

                We won’t forget anything anymore. Appointments, birthdays, friends, ect. It’s all on Facebook.

                We won’t know the difference between work and home.

                So many job positions will become extinct. Cashiers, travel agents, maids, salesmen, farmers, radio talk show host, shoe shiners, attendants, factory workers, phone operators, cab drivers..

                When was the last time you took a cab?

                It’s really sad. Just think about it for a while. It’s depressing.